Ephesians 2:8-9
8 For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—
and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God—
9 not by works, so that no one can boast.
This is the scripture that inspired this necklace by Agape Love Designs.
8 For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—
and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God—
9 not by works, so that no one can boast.
This is the scripture that inspired this necklace by Agape Love Designs.
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As soon as I saw it, and read the scripture, I knew. It immediately spoke to me. I just knew it was meant to be.
I'm not a religious person, however I consider myself a Christian. Technically I'm a Catholic. We don't worship on Sundays, yet I pray every day, sometimes many times a day. I'm inspired by people to have faith, not just in God, but in His path for us. I'm learning to have faith in this journey He has put me on.
With that said, I've never had a scripture so heavy in my heart as this one. Many of you know this story, but if you'd like the details you can find them here. I'm connected to this scripture because, I was saved by grace, Miss Mackenzie Grace.
The decision to have Miss Mac was a hard one. I would be lying if I said that back then I wanted a second child. I absolutely do now, but back before I got pregnant I had MAJOR reservations. I'm a very sick preggo, so I didn't want to do that again. I was also afraid I would slip back into my fog of motherhood, like I did with my poor Caity. Where I was so unsteady and unsure of what I was doing and who I was. When we revisited adding to our family Caitlin was two and a half, and I was finally a confident momma. I was doing what I knew was right for me and my child. I no longer second guessed. I no longer felt like a bad momma. I like to say that at that point, I had finally hit my stride.
But I knew. I knew the hubby really wanted another baby. In a sense I did too, but I was so scared. So I threw out the pills, and let God take over. No, really those were my exact words, to my BF, "I'm putting it in God's hands. If he wants me to get pregnant he will". To which my BF replied, "well get ready". A month later that stick had 2 pink lines.
Here is where God really did take over. The day Miss Mac was born, I had a post partum hemorrhage. I lost close to 2 pints of blood. Four hours after she came into the world, I had to leave her with Dad for emergency surgery. Here is what I remember about that morning. I hadn't held my baby since she was handed to me,after labor, and all I wanted to do was kiss her, cuddle her, and tell her all the things she needed to know. Just in case. I felt like I couldn't tell my husband I loved him enough. I couldn't tell my mom the same either. Then I just wanted Caitlin. To hug her and hold her and tell her it was going to be fine. Even though I didn't know.
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| Me and Miss Mac. All 4lbs 13oz of her |
Now for the interesting part of this story. I feel like my life, my mothering life, was truly saved by Miss Mackenzie Grace. All of those moments I missed because I was in a PPD fog, I got with her. The middle of the night cuddles, the loving gazes at each other, and the calm of a sleeping baby. We did that. She gave me a second chance to enjoy this journey from baby to toddler. I was able to look at the most frustrating parts of this job, and find joy in them. That is not something I did the first time around. And it makes me so sad, but I'm grateful that I got the chance to do it again.
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| Mac's 1st Bday She likes cake! |
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| Yeah, she's crazy funny like that! |
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| Yes, this one is mine. My Valentine's Day gift from the Hubbs. My little reminder of grace, who comes in all shapes and sizes. |
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